The Ascender's Touch

Hope For the Best, Expect the Excellent! Providing Newfound Hope One Day At A Time. โค๏ธ


March 2018

Self-love Comes First – (Relationship Topic)

(disclosure: this post is longer than normal but it is about self-love and toxic relationships)

Last night I had a dream that involved one of my ex-boyfriend’s from some time ago. It was a extremely toxic time of my life. I didn’t feel safe during this time. period.

Didn’t feel safe at:

My apartment.

My university.

Not in my car.

Nowhere within a 30miles radius of the city we resided in.

I previously stated in my last post how I constantly like to reflect on where my life used to stand years ago from the current date.

4 years ago around this season, I was trying to prepare myself to move away from my current apartment. My ex and I were breaking up but it didn’t stop him from stalking my living whereabouts daily.

Many times, I would look towards my window and see a shadow standing there… trying hard to peep within the blinds.

I would look through the front door’s peephole and see that it was him. If I acted like I was about to open the door, he would run off.

All in all, I was stalked.

I was abused.

Mentally and physically.

This guy would come over to my apartment. Eventually start a fight with me but would REFUSE to leave.

If I tried to make him leave, he would get aggressive with me.

Physically hurting me then damage my belongings.

At the time, my older sister moved out since she graduated and I had a roommate who was not there often.

If I shouted or screamed, there was no one around to help.

He purposely would start these fights like a child.

He knew I wouldn’t call the cops because I had marijuana paraphernalia inside my apartment.

It was a plot and plow from the devil himself. Making me feel trapped and stuck.

I was with this person for over 2 years. It didn’t start off so bad but once his insecurities came unglued, it got worse and worse.

One time, he came over after getting extremely drunk and who knows what else was in his system.

I took a shower after I let him in.

I heard him on the phone with someone & I could tell he was getting angrier by the second.

I knew that I probably should get the heck out of the shower and put on clothes ASAP!!!!

As soon as I finished getting dressed in the bathroom, I went out into my bedroom.

He said he was angry because he had a guy friend that said I hung out with him one day after work.

Which was completely false. Completely!!!!!!

Until then, I never had anyone falsely accuse me of simply hanging out with them. I didn’t understand.

Since he was already out of his natural mind, he didn’t want an explanation.

He grabbed my cell phone that was on my bed & opened my front door to throw it down the concrete of stairs.

We both ran to reach the broken phone before the other.

He quickly grabbed it a hare closer than what my arms could reach… throwing it two stories down onto the ground/grass.

One thing led to another, I found myself running down, grabbing the phone and being chased after him.

I ran and screamed in the parking lot but no one came to help.


I knew it would be best if I grabbed my dog and packed up to go to my mothers an hour away just to get away from him.

As I am leaving my apartment building, he pops out of a dark corner… chasing my dog and I all the way to my car.

My dog jumps in and I follow him.

This guy jumps on-top on my car, sitting on my hood.. saying if I turn the car on, he would break my window.

*moment freeze* Hmmm… should I listen to him?!! ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿค”๐Ÿค”


I turned that sucker on, ready to go.

Why would I get out the car?!

Crazy thing is, as I turned the car on… he stayed true to his word.

Instantly started to bash my front window in.

One blow after another.

Cracks forming all around.

Linking to one another.

I started to drive down this hill that my apartment complex sat upon. I swerved left and right trying to fling him off of my car.

It eventually worked.. he was off and rolled into the street.

Tears running down my eyes.. I drove all the way home without being able to contact ANYONE. (Since my phone was broken) ๐Ÿ™ƒ.

I was okay but my poor dog was truly traumatized and still is to this day. If I ever raise my voice high enough, my dog goes to hide because of what he witnessed during that relationship. And that is from a dog.

Imagine how abusive relationships affect CHILDREN when they witness their parents going through it. I am blessed that we were not married nor did we have children together!!! *praise dance*

Reflection: God is the one who got me out of that relationship. He leveled me up and got me to realize my self-worth. My divine worth. I was able to move out of that city and somewhere more remote. All ties were cut!

Do not ever settle or allow anyone to treat you horribly. We are worth more than gold itself!!!! No one is worth putting up with such behavior. I’m not saying it was easy because it wasn’t. ๐Ÿ˜ฉ Sad to say, I invested a lot of time and MONEY into that person.

To God be the glory because He made all the difference by strengthening me to break away. ๐Ÿฆ‹

Society makes you think if you are single then you’re missing out. There are people who become solely dependent on constantly having a man or woman in their lives. They call it “serial dating”… one after another, after another. Never giving themselves time to work within before conjoining with another.

Self-love comes first!!!

Jesus did not die for me out of TRUE LOVE to deal with something like that.

As I woke up from my dream last night, I gave the glory to God. Thanking Him from such deliverance!!!! ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ™Œ


He WILL Strengthen Us

I am finding myself on my knees more & more … meditating & giving thanks to our Heavenly Father.

2 weeks into practicing yoga, it’s truly helped me with things that I didn’t notice before.

Such as having anxiety while I’m driving or in traffic. The breathing practices have broken down what was built up before.

Focusing on the present.

That I am safe.

I am loved.

I am sought after.

God and His angels are hovering over me, around me & before me.

Each step that I take, He is already there.

This, I knew before but practicing this type of meditation helped me implement it into my mind/spirit.

I remember precisely when I finally caved in for the first time and got on my knees in a plea with God. I told him that my life was His and asked for His help to walk in the divine will that He’s laid out for me.

It was around this VERY season. I was being leveled from one stage of life into the next.

After leaving alcohol, lust and partying alone, I was more in-tuned with The Lord. Which led me to this brand new experience with Him.

Timing and seasons hold sooo much meaning. I highly recommend to always reflect on how your life WAS and WHAT type of season it occurred in.

During that great time, there were also doors (aka negative situations) that opened that are JUST NOW closing. I had no idea that it would take “this long” but God’s timing is always perfect.

Now walking through, I can see the full completion of this particular “tribulation” circling in commencement.

Through prayer and meditation we can improve our conscious contact with God as we grow to understand Him, praying for wisdom & insight of His will for us and the power to carry that out.

During Old Testament days, devout Jews made an annual pilgrimage to the temple in Jerusalem for a time of special prayer and worship. When they continued their journey in spite of all obstacles, their strength was increased.

Although we may not make such pilgrimages today, our search to know God more intimately through recovery is in itself a journey. This faith journey may not be easy. Daily we will encounter rough roads of temptation. We may pass through waterless valleys of struggle and discouragement, but if we will persist in trusting and obeying God, He will strengthen us.

The psalmist ends his song by declaring in verse 10 that being a humble servant of God is far better than being one who serves wickedness. God promises to guide and shield those who seek Him and desire to know and obey Him. He will bestow grace, glory, and countless blessings on all who are His children.

As David used to pray 7 times a day, I dare you to challenge yourself (as I will be doing the same) to fully ASK for the very things that you seek & want God to reveal to you. I am a witness & can testify that He WILL do it. He will strengthen you in greater ways than you can imagine.

The Prophetic Advantage: Day 4 ๐ŸŒน

Hello Everyone,

Praying that you all had a wonderful and enjoyable weekend. ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

As for myself, I surely enjoyed it. The rain finally let up & God’s beautiful sun got to shine throughout it all. ๐ŸŒˆโœจ

I took up the practice of yoga this weekend as well. ๐Ÿง˜๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ My friend who is 6 years more advanced than I, took out the time to help me train. We went to a free yoga class in the middle of downtown dallas. After the class, I could immediately tell the difference of where my head space was at. I truly felt more intune with The Holy Spirit. It brought a certain type of clarity to my mind that merged with the peace that God provides.

I’m going to continue to practice and see how well it helps me develop mentally and even spiritually with the Lord. ๐Ÿค˜๐Ÿพโœจ

Last week I was posting a few devotional excepts that are based from this book called “The Prophetic Advantage“. ๐ŸŒน

These excerpts seem to cover only the surface of prophetic ministry. I am sure the book goes far more into detail than what I am posting.

I’m extremely curious to find out more about this book. I will be purchasing it to fulfill my curiosity! ๐Ÿ˜

The final excerpt that I will be posting is:

Understanding the Deep Things of God ๐ŸŒน

Notice Paul begins this verse stating manโ€™s inability in the natural realm to understand the deep things of God. The Holy Spirit searches and investigates the deep predetermined plans of God for each individual situation. The Holy Spirit reveals these plans and purposes of God to our spirit.

The word reveal comes from the Greek word apokalyptล, which means to uncover, unveil, disclose. It is a picture of something suddenly being removed, and obscure things are now in plain sight.

When the Holy Spirit lifts the veil from your spiritual eyes, ears, and heart, you can perceive truth that was veiled from your understanding. This is called revelation.

Webster defines revelation as โ€œthe act of disclosing or discovering to others what was before unknown to them.โ€ It is the communication of truth to men by God through His authorized agentsโ€”the prophets and apostles.

Revelation must be interpreted correctly before its application. There is a connection between the eyes and the ears being open to the Holy Spirit, which allows the heart to comprehend. The prophetic word or revelation comes through three basic spiritual senses: the eyes, the ears, and the heart. We have the ability to hear the voice of God. He opens our sight to see from His perspective and touches our hearts to feel as He does. Some people can even smell in the Spirit. Just as we have natural senses, we also have parallel spiritual senses.

โ€œbut just as it is written [in Scripture], โ€œTHINGS WHICH THE EYE HAS NOT SEEN AND THE EAR HAS NOT HEARD, AND WHICH HAVE NOT ENTERED THE HEART OF MAN, ALL THAT GOD HAS PREPARED FOR THOSE WHO LOVE HIM [who hold Him in affectionate reverence, who obey Him, and who gratefully recognize the benefits that He has bestowed].โ€

“For God has unveiled them and revealed them to us through the [Holy] Spirit; for the Spirit searches all things [diligently], even [sounding and measuring] the [profound] depths of God [the divine counsels and things far beyond human understanding].โ€


truly enjoy the rest of your day today!!! Walk throughout the day with a sound mind. Knowing that we serve a Great God. Don’t be scared to ask God for insight or wisdom on a situation. If you seek, you shall find. โค๏ธ

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